Art: I’ve been making houses from and in the forests.  I’m telling you about Hansl and Gretl.  I’m telling you there was more than one house.  I’m telling you that it is not over and the story is always happening.  The character isn’t limited to the phenomenon at eye level.  There is space, time, and animated bodies outside of every human’s eye level.  We are all characters in this narrative.  So is the frame of a house, so is the frame of a film, and so is the frame of a nucleus.  I’ve been thinking about our capitalistic and instant gratifiying cravings and fulfillments.  When I tried to come to terms with why I respect the forest so much, I concluded that it rarely holds either of these traits.  You cannot conjure a 1,000 year old oak at whim.  That is a comforting thought.

School: It’s chugging along.  I feel like the studio work is less reactive and more meticulous.  This is a huge improvment and allows for clearer follow-through.

People: I am still in distress about people in my life (and out), and quite possibly will be … infinitely, because of these two faults of mine:  one: i measure my worth in the people i keep.  two:  I (and this is more rare than the former) let people conclude my worth based on the relational value of things (any.things).  Every person that turned into a ghost in my egotistical realm of narrative has looked back and said, “she is talented and intelligent.”  and that leaves me to wonder what i lack that keeps others from sticking around.  I mean, I think I know at this point, but is it worth suppressing certain “flaws” to make each interaction less confrontational?  Okay, fine, probably.

Travel: At the expense and with the help of PJ, I am one inch closer to a better credit report.  With that, I am most likely going to be able to choose either to move to a larger city for the next academic school or take a trip outside of the US… Canada not included.  Suggestions welcome.  Within  the last five years, I have racked up quite a few adult travel experiences.  East/West coasts… not too much in between.  I am a firm believer in that before you leave your home you should really know your home.  I know the edges.

In other news, this summer is full.  I am going to Champagne – Urbana to apprentice with a costume designer on an independant film.  The day I return to LaFayette, Phil and I will be departing for Portland Maine.  We are driving this year, so I hope to stop in Philly and DWG.  So, one month in IL and two in ME.  I can’t even begin to postulate how this summer in Maine will be.  I know that the bond that our graduate class has is growing and I am excited to engage in that level, and as far as the actual academic are concerned… well… it will be a complete immersion i assume in thesis foundation, theorizing galore, and obviously plunging head first and fearlessly into making making making.  As far as what will happen after the summer I am not quite sure as of yet.  Most likely I will be relocating to Chicago… for the third time.