Choices are coming in the mail. So far, since I have not had confirmation from two schools as of yet, my choices are thus:
a. I could move to Portland (ME not OR, don’t fret) with Phil, find co-ops or work with what i have, or finagle my way into the undergrad facilities, find him a job, transfer to university of southern maine. +there are really great Aikido schools there. New energies as catalysts for our innate pliability in the definion of self.
b. I could move there alone doing the same thing but with much less moral support and a one sided experience relayed via instant messaging, surely. Distancing and bringing closer, potentially.
c. I could stay here, however demand that we move, get an adviser in IN and spend my low residency in ME. If I do this, I will find somewhere that i can have a real permanent studio and set my roots here. (that makes me sad).  But the benefit is that i can spend my loan money on building a real art studio of my own to further my art career. However, I could essentially do this in Portland too.
d. I could stay here, in this house. keep this house. use some loan money to fix up a room, some other things to make it more part of my heart and enough for support the idea of living in a house without roommates.
e. Wait to see what other schools say….? State school benefits: it has other courses i could take. 24 hour access, contacts, travel abroad, teaching positions, my own studio. i don’t have to move. Less money to owe later. downfall: it is here and not an art school primarily it is a big ten school. Other private leftover, would be the best option for obviousl reasons.
f. Try again next year to same/better/more schools with gusto and have more knowledge that I learned this first time around.

what do you think?

A thought I had today:  Every book is holy.